Heeee, today was a good day, yo(:

Went to Parkway with Maaa to cut my hair. It's short now, chin length. But it's already starting to stick out, grrrrr. So it was just me and Maaa(: Talked quite alot, because I haven't seen her for a few days. Hehhh, my mummy is so lameeee. Haha!

The rest of the day was (: too. Thank you.

I don't know what I'd do if I ever lost you.
And all the loneliness I would go through.
But if you wanna leave I won't stop you.
'Cause I don't want you
If you don't want me to be the one,
The only one you wanna run to.

Today was such a gdfjhgktormnbfd day): Damn the bloody O Level Oral Examinations. Kanasai! I was freaking pissed off. Aisyah said that she could see my face was damn black when I was walking out of the hall.

Thank you for making me feel better though. Even though I screwed it up like shit :/ Ahh, I miss you laaa.

I'm pissed/sad/disappointed/angry/at a loss for words.

Don't assume. I think acting blind is not a good idea at all.

Haven't touched the computer since Tuesday. Goodgood.

Tuesday had IPT with Ms Thang - Intensive Physics Tuition. We just sat down there for 3 whole hours. Me, Yvonne, Ashwiyni, Eunice, Nasuha and Ramya. I'm finally not that blur in Physics((: But the Physics paper yesterday was superly shitttttts.

Yesterday was POP): ohmymy. I think this was my most tearful POP): I loved the hugs, though(:

Went Indoor Stadium today for the SYFOC preview. Hehh, we wanted to go to support the RCY people. But they were the FIRST ones, starting promptly at 4pm. GRRRRR, so we missed it): Haha. Zura and I did something stupid while going back home today. Haha, I cannot take it. The sheer stupidity. Hurrrrrr(:

Oh and Malay Oral is tomorrow. I'm soooo unprepared):

Okay, Diana. Don't screw this up. This opportunity is hard to come by.

Ughhh, I'm feeling sick. I feel like puking :/ My nose is running, and my throat's sore, and I'm coughing. Oh mannnnn. Not a good time to be sick.

Sheesh, I think it was the stupid bubble tea I drank just now. Must stop drinking it!

I'm feeling kind of sleepy now, even though it's only 11. Hurr, I hope tonight won't be like last night. Kept tossing and turning, and couldn't sleep until 2+. But still, I didn't sleep in class today. Very goooood(:

School's starting tomorrow, and I'm dreading it. There's only one motivation for me going to school and that is CHARLIEEE. It'll be the same old daily routine again. In the morning, slack at the benches with Charlie. Duty, no more flagraising)): Lessons, blablabla. Recess with Charlie. Lessons again, blablabla. Then after school, slack/study/discuss stuffs with Charlie. I think my world really does revolve around the platoon and NCC. Sometimes, it's good. Sometimes, it's not :/

Hurr, today wasn't really a good day. And it was all because of last night. NDP was fine yesterday, but at night was just...

I really think I'm thinking too much. It's not possible for me to stop thinking about this matter for one day. Actually, it will pop up in my head every other minute. Except when I'm sleeping. Ohmy, this is not good. Not good at all :/ "Forget it, forget everything." I keep telling myself that. But somehow, I'll forget my Chem/Maths but that stupid thing is still in my brain. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I dug this hole, jumped in, continued digging and digging. Now I'm 234567210237 feet under. Now then, I'm trying to get out. Now then, I'm regretting it.

And touch rugby can seriously go fly a bloody kite.

Back to 1998, yo. The days when Backstreet Boys and *N Sync were still cool. Hehheh(:

It's tearing up my heart when I'm with you.
But when we are apart, I feel it too.
And no matter what I do, I feel the pain.
With or without you.

Baby, I don't understand
Just why we can't be lovers.
Things are getting out of hand.
Trying too much, but baby we can't win.

Let it go.
If you want me girl, let me know.
I am down, on my knees.
I can't take it anymore.

Baby, don't misunderstand
What I'm trying to tell you.
In the corner of my mind,
Baby, it feels like we are running out of time.

Let it go.
If you want me girl, let me know.
I am down on my knees.
I can't take it anymore.

It's tearing up my heart when I'm with you.
But when we are apart, I feel it too.
And no matter what I do, I feel the pain.
With or without you.

Some people can bring out the best in me, but yet some can bring out the worst. Paranoia is taking over me.

I'm wondering why my life is so full of 'maybe's. Today's LJ post had so many 'maybe's in them. Hurr, I think I'm thinking too much. Sorry, Trisha, you still can't read my LJ(:

Today was such a shit day. I don't know how it got so freaking screwed.

Hello, woman. Yes, you drunk woman. I know I was being such an eeedyut today but ohwells, I had my reasons luh. I just didn't want you to regret things like these. Your goal is so freaking near to you, all you have to do is just reach out and grab it. You don't have to move an inch. You've wanted it for so long, and now it's right in front of you, staring straight into your face. You get what I'm saying? If not, I wouldn't be surprised. I think it's time for a talk :/

Times like these, I really want to turn around and run away. But I can't, I'm in too deep.

I can't sleep. Random things keep on popping into my head. I don't even know why the shit am I thinking about you. Waste of my bloody time :/

Times like these, I really love Livejournal. I can just type out everything I feel, and I, only I can see it.

Today was such a failure, sheeeeeeesh. I just wanted to knock your head until our words could go in, but NOOOOO.

FISHball noodle! I'm dead-er than dead. My homework is reallyreally going nowhere. I've only completed the languages, because that's all I can understand. The rest is like HUHHH? Chem is the worst. Anyone wants to give me a crash course of the Chem syllabus of the first two terms in school? And I can really forget about studyingggg):

Mon - Thurs will be in school. Sheeeeeeeeeeesh. I'm hating my stupid and small brain now): I hate school.

Today can be summed up in one word: KUKUBANANA! Hoho, first thing in the morning. Zura was late because her cat ran away, then she had to chase her cat in her No 4! HAHA! I think it would have been a funny sight(: But NDP itself was :/ because I was stoning for 4 whole hours. I'm not even sick anymoreeee! Heh, thanks to YOU who entertained me though(:

Went to eat at Popeye's after that(: Heh, because last week, we already ate Zura's KFC. So today, must eat Trisha's Popeye's. Haha, I think we're kind of chicken-crazy? Hoho, but one day must bring that Fatimah Ili along. Because the chicken is not chicken-y! Funnnnny at Popeye's! Zura said that the biscuits tasted like diapers, TSK! Yvonne said that the biscuit looked nice, but didn't taste nice, so Zura, being the SMART lit student said "Looks can kill, yo!" Then we looked at each other with the HUHHHH? expression. Then I finally realized that she meant "Looks can be deceiving." HAHAHAHA, Zura Zura! She's damn cartoon. She wanted to scold Trisha about something, but out came a loudddd burp instead. Hoho. We finished eating at 5 45, around there but gedebakgedebuk, we were at the bus stop only at 6 +. Zura and Nasuha took train home, while I SMARTLY decided to stay with Yvonne and Trisha. The whole journey home was like around 4 hours?? Besssssst!

They were drunkards, I tell you! Especially that Trisha. Tskkk, she was damn loud and high. Haha, the video below was of us being drunk. Then, suddenly the video went haywire. You know whyy? Because Trisha pushed meee! I was sitting on the bench at the bus stop, butt half on the bench, butt half in the air, swingingswinging my legs. Then she suddenly OHMYGOD, then she pushed me down. My leg went FLYINGGG up, I tell you! Hoho, kukubanana! We took 171 which took FOREVERRRRR to get to Yishun. Trisha was damnnnn loud in the bus, tsk. She spotted Island Creamery then she "EHHHHH! Island Creamery!!" loudly. Hehh, reached Yishun only at 8.15pm. Yvonne and I slept for only ten minutes. Got woken up, then spent the rest of the journey singingsinging and action-ing at the back of the bus.

From Yishun, I flew back to Tampines. Reached Tampines at 8.45pm, took the bus back home at 9. I slept on the bus, then overshot all the way to Macpherson, Old Cedar there. Sheeshkebabs, so crossed over, took another bus back home. Home sweet home at 10(: So all in all, I took 4 buses. Thank God for bus concession((:









Trisha pronounces it as "Per-pies" Hahaha

Hurrrrr.

Happy Birthday Darlingg!!(: Hoho, it's like 11.58pm now. Hehhh.

I just got off the phone with random platoonmates. Hurrrr, now I feel worse):

But overall today was a :D day. Thank you((((:

Today was such a shittt day. Spent the whole day in bed/lying down/sleeping. I can't believe I'm missing Unit Camp))): My heart broke when I read your message, then I cried myself to sleep. Because of you, again.

I just updated my Livejournal. I really feel like going back there. Hurr, memories of Bravo 07. Freakingly carefree memories. Compared to now, there were like zero problems back then):

Fish, I feel like shit now): But I'm forcing myself to go. Already 2 down. Hurr, finally I've finished packing :/

As I'm sitting in front of the computer typing, I feel as though I'm in a kayak all by myself. Hurr, I'm getting sea sick, sort of.

Heh, today was superduper funnnnn!(: We did rescue! Grouped with Grace Tang and Aisyah. Funny moments, even though it was supposed to be serious. Hehh, you better pray hard if Grace Tang is your rescuer! Haha. But the kayaks were super heavy and to lift them up was just freakingly hard. Aisyah and her muscles were damn pro, though. She was the fastest to lift the kayak up. Then we did a mass capsize! Every single one of us capsized, and we had to figure out a way for all of us to get into our kayaks again. The instructors were :D and one of them reallyreallyreally looked like Abang Imran.

After Ms Poon's debrief, we went to eat at KFC. We were supposed to reach there by 7, but tsktsk Kathleen! Hoho, we started shifting the tables around as though it was our grandfather's house. Sat next to that Neo Jia Hui and she had to endure with my AIR. Haha, it was either up or down!(: Haha, I think we are weird people. Anything that anyone gave us to drink, we just drank happily, not thinking that anything was wrong. Hoho, because they started mixing the drinks at the free refill area. Everyone looked as if they were sunburnt. Especially Wen Min! She was red all over, even her chin, forehead, everywhere! Hoho, Siao Tian and Janice looked as if they were horribly drunk, though.

Hurr, these two days just flew by. Next "obstacle" for June holidays is Unit Camp, then I'm quite freeeee! But must complete all my homework and study, which I doubt is possible :/

Kayaking was quite okay today, though my mood was bleghh.

I ___ on the way home today. It's been a long time. I just saw __ yesterday, but I can't stop thinking about __. My posts have been so __ish lately. Only I will understand because ____.

Had NDP today! Yeah, it was fun(: We were trading Spec Course stories among ourselves. Heh, Zura was being damn funny. She and her STUCKSTUCKSTUCK. And that goondupok didn't tell us about the "patience" thing until today. Tskk, I told her all the unglam things that happened to me but she didn't. So mean!

Trisha was being super random today. She was so high today, even though she slept at 3 am! Tskkkk. Hehh, from her "OHHHHH, Charlie!" to her "HUH?? Bagusssss!" and her "Yipee Yaya!" She kept on saying "I miss Spec Course! I miss the training shed! I miss the bunks!" But it's true luhhh, the three of us were SpecCourse-sick. Got so many funny things! I think Fatimah and her AHEMAHEM is so funny. Matchingmatching some more!(:

Kayaking tomorrow and Monday! I feel damn tired to go. Tuesday got meeting, then Unit Camp starting from Wednesday to Friday. Then NDP all over again. Haisehman, I think what my mother said was true): I have less than one week to finish up all my homework, study and revise for the upcoming tests. Sheeeesh! I really don't feel like going for kayaking, because I'm having thoughts of __ __. Should I? I think if __ goes through with it, then I will.

Back from Spec Course! All my skin problems started again; ringworm, eczema, white spots, and a whole lot of rashes. Tsk, my skin superrr sensitive. And I got a big bruise because of my unglam fall): But it was all worth it(: Raven 5!

But the bad news is, my mother saw my report book when I was away. Eeeeyer. Then she started talking to me, and I felt really guilty because it's true :/ I promised her after the first common tests that I will concentrate on my work. Then yesterday she asked me where I was with my holiday homework. Told her the truth that I haven't even breathed on it yet. She had that disappointed face):